So my wife came by yesterday to pack up some more stuff.
Seems like anything I try and talk about with her she breaks down. I asked a simple, what are you thinking wanting in the divorce? And she said she didn't want to talk about it. Then I asked well can we try and do this without lawyers? Then she said that's it I am leaving. I convinced her to stay to finish up. She said she wished we could get along, but it seems anything we talk about turns to me not listening to her months ago. And breaking her trust. She says because of me that she can't trust anyone. I asked her was there anything that we could have done to avoid the divorce? I mean this has been going on for 6 months and I have been doing all I can.
She said no! It was too late by the time we got to counseling.
I am trying to be friendly but she just seems so upset and hurt. And she told me the more she thinks about things the more hurt and upset she gets.
Someone tonight told me that she thinks my wife can't or won't separate my actions from the past from me. And until she can she won't be able to forgive me or not be anxious around me.
I mentioned to my wife tonight on the phone that I was thinking about making my new puppy a therapy dog, and that one of the disability listed was "Emotionally Overwhelmed" which is how I feel. When I told her this, she said that I seemed to be doing fine, that she was the one Emotionally Overwhelmed.
I just said that I am trying to show you I am strong, and I am wanting to be more attractive to her. (Probably shouldn't confessed to that)
I know, lots of rambling
But thanks for those who listen and give support