TLEE86 Part IV

[TLEE86]

I should be proud of her, happy for her, and I am. But I am also a crying hot mess.

She sold our truck, our beloved Tacoma. She didnt tell me, but she posted this long blurb on her blog about selling it and how I was really helpful in helping her pay for it and how she was nervous because I'm her safety net in everything but this time she did it on her own. She mentioned that she needs to talk to me and let me know about selling it but i just texted her instead when i read it.

i said "I just wanted to say Congratulations. I saw your post about getting a new car and I am very proud of you for doing that on your own. I am sure you were really nervous about getting one on your own but again, I am proud of you W."

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She actually did it. She got her own car with her own credit and her own payments. I should be happy for her, proud of her..instead I just see it as one more step of her moving on. This is her first, very first big girl decision and she made it. All by herself, at least for the most part. Yet Im just in tears and thinking that its just really over. I havent talked to her in 2 weeks, NC at all from either side, so I guess she's ready.

I should be happy for her. But I cant get over her. I have taken down every picture of her, and havent reached out to her at all. I am trying to date online, but its just not working. Im just on the floor bawling, when I should be happy for her that she made a big girl decision and she is doing it on her own. She has a job, not a great one, but she has one, and has her own vehicle in her own name.

I should be happy for her. But Im just in tears.