Thanks Heavy... I haven't been re-reading them. They are certainly juvenile nonsense, but also like I said up there, enlightening as to exactly when and how things began. Not really disturbing me. I'm actually glad I know now.

I really detached from my WW more this week than ever, which was painful but also good... long stretches where I was busy and didn't think about her. I wasn't home, so there could be no surprises with her showing up and potential arguments. I had the distraction of my good friend and her daughter, had a great dinner with the boys and another friend one night. And during this week - where in the beginning I even announced to her that I wanted to go a whole week without talking - she called me four times and left me two messages wanting to talk. So... she doesn't want me, but she doesn't want me detached.

In "real life," I have let my planted seeds grow - letting them be watered by time, distance, and prayer. I want her back, of course. But mostly, I want God's best for her. And that's been my prayer lately.


Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19