Anxiously waiting for it to fall apart

[dejavu2]

Hi NAP!!! Thanks for stopping by!

Unfortunately, I have to leave the light on for H to come home. By law I cannot refuse him access to the house if he wants to be here. I also knew of his desire to move, so I realised that everything would change soon enough.

Friends are very important thru this process. Since BD, separately 3 different long-standing male friends have offered to talk with H, as they think he is making poor life choices of not valuing his marriage and not providing framework/security for his family. None of them think there was an OW involved. I am touched that 3 different men would feel emotionally strong enough to offer to get involved in my situation. They are willing to "fight" for my marriage, when H isn't willing to. They are saying things which I have longed to hear from H for many years.

Yesterday I was driving to collect girls from camp and got lost in my own thoughts which resulted in missing my turnoff off a round-about in bumper-to-bummper traffic. So, I changed routes to avoid the b-2-b traffic. As I got off at the next exit, uncertain of which way to turn, my H called (first call since Sunday). We had a brief conversation which included an apology for not calling all week, a discussion about what was happening with his work and I gave him an update on the house viewings. Needless to say, I was distracted (completely lost) so the conversation wasn't long. However, it was interesting as I could tell something in me has changed. I finally felt detached.