Zeus I loved reading 911 detatchment! that is exactly what I need. I need to detatch and become stronger. I need work on not being scared of upsetting the situation by showing myself respect. I deserve respect, happiness and a healthy relationship with honesty faithfullness happiness and trust. I am not getting any of that from this right now. I need to keep moving forward. One day at a time! Tomorrow D8 and I will be attending races to watch him race but we will be on opposite sides and I am not going just to watch him I was going to skip but D keeps begging to go so we will make it a me and her night in the grandstands wave when he races and i will simply reply ok when he texts me the line up nothing more. I think I need to start journaling my feelings instead of progress. Maybe that will help me to see patterns. Thanks everyone for all of your input I hope to continue getting support/input. It means a lot to me. I want to do anything I can to save myself and my family.
