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[Zues126]

hey Z.

Been lurkin'around. There is no DB sitch hapenning over here really. As in D not going to be busted. L-ing continues at snails' pace. Just moving along, rolling with the punches. Some events in my life have occured, L-ing being one of them, but really no change WRT D. Still ICing, DBing my own self, will post more maybe about my own path/growth, but no real setbacks. I am more or less settled into this D just going ahead. I am still open to R, but that is not only looking like the distant back end of a boat on the horizon - it is looking like I am hoping it doesn't tac back this way.

Because ^^, I dont really have anything constructive to say for D-Busters to consider. Maybe D-accepters. Anyway, seems like it would be pure self-indulgent journaling at this stage. I'm always thinking about you my friend and my fellow DBers here.

Take care my friend. -Py

Almost 100% of this applies to me. Shoot, BD was over a year ago and we're just starting mediation now. First mediation on 7/2 and I haven't heard from anyone since. Someday I dream of being a snail's pace.

And yes, my R is pretty much cooked. Like you it's way beyond whether WAS changes her mind, which if it occurred would likely be years away. But then too I've learned more about who I am, what I want, and who knows if WAS would ever be strong enough to step up in the ways she'd have to before I'd consider R.

Not to say it's impossible, but statistically speaking most of these sitches don't turn around. Think of Mozza's success links. What if you made a thread of divorce links (assuming we had the true info from those that disappear)? It would be pretty grim.

But I am so grateful for this site. I mean, I'm a different person than I was a year ago. Totally prepared to be a single dad, and a better H to someone down the road should that door open someday to someone. I am a better dad. And I will never have regrets about how I stood for my M and how I acted according to my beliefs. As a reward I have been freed from most of the negative emotions, both from pain, from anger, from fear, resentment, and from dependency. If someday my M miraculously comes back together in an acceptable way, that would almost be small potatoes compared to this.

I think you're feeling the same some of the time, and will more and more. And I PROMISE you have more personal growth ahead of you. So do keep journaling, and keep supporting your friends, and maybe some newbies along the way. Thanks Py and have a great weekend!