Help and Support Appreciated 2

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Dinner went really well, had a really great time with all 7 of us, had been hard for us to all go to dinner, having to take two cars, and tiny babies and all.

During dinner she leaned over and said that what I did earlier today changes a lot of things... I asked like what,tell me more?
She gave me this look, like not what you are thinking... I was just curious as to what all this changes in her mind.

WE had a great meal, kids were happy, i was happy, she was very happy, and kept staring at our older twin D1, and said how much she looks like her daddy.

She paid the bill, we got up to leave, and we stood and had a smoke while teens were getting twins in carseats, she sat down on parking block, and we were talking about the fair that is across the street for city Festival, then she started looking pretty ill, siad she was not feeling very well at all. Asked S17 to drive home due to her looking like death, and hardly being able to stand.

Arrived home and helped her out of truck, still looking pale, and ill.

I am worried, due to fact that last time I remember her being this ill she was pregnant... which would just make things so much more damn complicated at this point.. WE have had sex one time unprotected since May, and that was last week after her surgery. I have no idea if she could have already dropped before the surgery, or if it's even possible.

Something new to worry about.

Good news is, that I kept a cool, strong confident demeanor today, didn't ruminate on it all day and beat myself up, and actually had plans for GAL, but work scheduling with my friend delayed it, and was in the middle of dinner when he finally got off work.

Going to gun range tomorrow to blow off some steam with another coworker... getting to shoot a .45 , a .45 and a 9mm, so I am pumped, haven't had any pistols in yearsss, don't believe in having them in a home with kids, but that is just me.

Some nice stress relief and something to get my blood pumping.