Thanks, guys. Met with ww over lunch to have her pick up the kids. She put the boys in the car and stopped to talk to me. Immediately she said "I'm sorry and thank you". She apologized and said that she was in the wrong and would work to communicate more and not change plans at the last second. She said she understands that wasn't fair.
While she didn't get into the aspect of what the boys would see, she did make it a point to apologize and own part of her mess up. She could have easily said screw it, stayed pissed at me and blame me for ruining her birthday if she wanted to - she didn't. That's at least something.
She said we'll have our share of ups and downs. I told her I know that, but my hope is we can continue to communicate as we have and for the most part, have them be positive interactions. She said she wanted that too.
Again, for me right now, it's not missing her or in love with her. It's still the trigger or mistrust, disrespect and cheating - the same as I would have for any relationship. Hopefully that heals over time as well.
M-33 W-33 S-11, S-8 M-11, T-14 BD - 12/26, Divorce Filing and admits to affair (her) 4/18 I moved out 5/23