Time to bury the mustard seed

[mustardseed]

Things are moving along. I took a professional development course yesterday offered by the agency that I was hired by back in October. I also submitted some of the paperwork they needed to complete the hiring process. I still have more papers to complete but being in between address makes it tricky. I am hoping to have everything in within the next few weeks and then I should be able to start picking up some jobs. There is some additional training and certificates I need to do early intervention--which seems to be the majority of their case load, and a required course that they don't offer until September, so I might just have to continue collecting unemployment until I can get that done.

I am taking another workshop next week, and then another in August. Taking the course started to renew my confidence and remind me of what I enjoy doing and do well. And I was finally approved for unemployment so I should start receiving payments within a few days. That was a longer wait then I expected and I was getting really nervous. I'm relieved to know it is coming.

H surprised me by asking me if I wanted to take the dog when I picked up the kids yesterday. So I have my girl with me. He was unclear about when/if I should be returning her so I plan to hold on to her as long as I can--checking with L for that.

I am moving into my new place next Friday. I am so excited. I picked up a coffee table and two end tables from a thrift shop. It is beautiful Roman Marble top and mahogony base. Not really something I would have purchased for myself but better quality than anything I could afford and only $125 for the whole set. They are beautiful pieces, a little dinged and scratched but perfect for my current needs.

I'm trying to find out if I will be allowed to go back into our place to get some more things. I want my crock-pot and keurig, two things H never uses. I have some dishes and silverware that were my grandmothers and being stored in my mother's garage, so I'm not worried about that. I just need some of my appliances. I also want my bedroom set and all of my grandmother's furniture from our place--including the dining room table. Might have to wait until our court date for that stuff.

Today I am feeling a little sad. A little heart broken. I was watching some old home videos with my mother and aunt earlier in the week and some of them was from when my kids were babies. H was so sweet and funny, and loving. What happened to him? At least it was a reminder that I didn't just rewrite history, things really were good once upon a time. I miss that man. The man he was then would have hated the man he turned into. Would have wanted to beat up the man he is today for the d-bag things he did.

Oh well. I am ready to move on. If things work out I could make a decent salary doing agency work. I still have to figure out health insurance and stuff, but I can make enough money. This is a new beginning.

My sister bought a surf board similar to the kind they use in lessons. They are easier than the fancy ones my BIL and niece use. So maybe if I have some time next week I will head back over to the beach and try it out on my own. Surfing really was the highlight of my summer right now. It is a good summer. I am feeling a lot of sorrow, but I know I will probably look back at this summer as being one of the best once I get passed the BS.

And V. It looks like you are really coming along with your clean up project. You are an amazingly strong woman! Thanks for your constant support.