Happy Antiversary to me! I realized this morning that yesterday was the anniversary of my BD and I somehow got through the whole day without thinking about it. I suppose that's good - I'd hate to go through the rest of my life with a big red circle around July 23rd.
Where am I at? I have a pretty full life, I take even more pleasure in being a mother, I've steered the ship to pretty calm waters professionally and financially since that day, although many challenges remain. I find many of my GAL activities enriching - I couldn't believe how excited I was to start coaching another season of soccer.
Am I happy? Mmmmm....I wouldn't go that far. I think I still settling. But I find pleasure in many things in my life. Still absolutely no desire to seek out any romantic relationships. I think that's good.
As to STBX - as I've mentioned earlier in my thread, my Dad's death just seems to have stirred up a lot of negative emotions about him. Much of the anger has passed, but I'm still processing things. He had D3 yesterday. I sent him a note asking him to return some of the clothes that have never returned from his place on previous visits because I want them for when we travel next week. He emailed me that he had found most of them but when I looked at the bag yesterday he had included a bunch of size 8 clothes that are clearly intended for D7 and furthermore are not "mine". They must have been picked out by OW. There was a time when I would have laughed at this - at the moment I found it extremely irritating. Then when I took her to her swim lesson I found out that he had skipped it the previous day without telling me. I don't even know why that bugs me right now (I've skipped a few) but it does.
Now I will be heading off to spend a week with my daughters and his family at his childhood with pictures of him all around. Should be a good test for me.
