Ripken - WW filed for divorce and already moved on

[Ripken8]

Zues,

Thanks for checking in. Sorry I've been AWOL. I have been keeping to myself and GAL at the same time. I've taken my workouts to new levels and joined a cross-fit gym. There, I've made some new friends and they are a pretty tight knit group, so that's been nice. Also I've been doing softball and a regular meetup group, in addition to going to Buddhist temple every Sunday.

I do try and spend some nights and times alone, so I can get used to it and be ok with it. I'm not as lonely anymore and don't find myself constantly craving for my wife. I really believe in the immediate future, that ship has sailed. What that means years down the road, who knows? But, the more I get to appreciate myself, the sooner I'll feel ready for a relationship with anyone. Right now, I just enjoy getting to know new people and making new friends.

Also communication with ww has been greatly improved. We talk on the phone 2-3 times a week for 10-15 minutes always about the boys, selling the house, that stuff. However, it's always been cordial and helpful. Last night, I even joked a little and got a laugh from her. Wasn't trying, just was organic and hung up thinking maybe we will be able to enjoy each other's company in time - nothing romantic, just even as friends. Still have no idea if that's possible for me, but was the first second since all this happened that it crossed my mind.

This morning though has been a HUGE test. She asked me last night if I could make a key for the boys so she could sleep in this morning and pick them up later. Told her it wasn't in my plans and was doing other things with them. She said it wasn't a problem and she would just see them in the morning. Was a good convo.

She then called twice at 5AM and sent 2 texts - I didn't see these until I was just about there. I called her and she said "we'll you can drop them off I guess, but there'll be another car there. That's why I was trying to call you." Yeah, OM is/was there. Told her I was turning around and no way in hell were they going to be subject to that. She said she understood. Told her what she does on her time is her business, but now is her time with the boys. Instead of calling me at 5AM, she could have kicked his ass out. She said, "yeah, I guess that was an option."

This is her weekend with the boys and today is ALSO her birthday! Ugh. I spoke with her after and told her WHY I was so upset. Not about her and him, but about how it would impact the boys and how turning back around was an inconvenience to say the least. Don't; call me a 5AM the next day after we had a convo the day before and agreed to this. She apologized and said she understood. I told her that while SHE feels her and OM are great and will be together forever, I just moved out 2 months ago and the boys just learned of the divorce 1 month ago. If they walked in on him being there, it's NO different to them than if they walked in on me with some random chick. WW said she understood that too.

Ugh. Still proud of myself for having PMA throughout this.