S18 has gone to live with S21 and H because he was beginning to go off the rails and both H and I felt he could do with some adult males in his life and some tough love.
H has expressed renewed feelings and thoughts about me. Regrets what he did to us and hates the person he has become. He has opened up quite a bit lately and confessed to now seeing a shrink and acknowledging that this is a mlc and he needs serious help. He is scared and unsettled, his word was "overwhelmed" by what he has been doing, who he has become, who he has hurt and by the feelings and thoughts he has. He wants to make sure that what he feels for me is real and not the crisis talking, so we remain friends and he is trying to be a better dad to our sons.
I am trying to work on what is next for me, keeping the focus on me. I have so many options and yet none ? Its a bit of a bluh moment right now. I know something will kick start the movement again.
So welcome to Chapter 4 - I was looking back over chapter 3, I really never expected it to end with H and I talking again - just goes to show that anything can happen so dont give up hope and keep the faith. You never know what is around the corner
Love and peace to everyone, you are my rocks and I am so grateful to each and every one of you. Thank you.
