Thanks for everybody's response to my sitch. I truly appreciate the insight and feedback. Sorry I haven't been more responsive the last couple of days. I made a conscious decision to step back a little bit. I think what happened to Matt spooked me a little but it's more that I need to spend more time living and less time worrying about my sitch.

Journaling:
The last couple of days have been fairly straight forward. Work is starting to pick up a bit. Had some fun nights out with some friends.

Last night began a four day run with the kiddos. I'm really excited to have them back and have some really good ideas for some fun adventures together this weekend.

Interactions with STBX have been status quo. She intermittently sends video TMs of the kids and sometimes I reply back, sometimes not.

Last night, STBX called well after the kids bedtime. She was concerned about D4 being upset at the child exchange. I told her that we had a fun time and both kids were sleeping. STBX then began to say that she missed our family and she missed me. She said everything happened so fast and she wished things had turned out differently. She then talked at length about the friends she lost and how much it hurts, etc. I mostly STFU, listen, let her talk, and occasionally agree or validate.

After a few minutes, she gets a work call and says that she will have to call me back. I say don't worry about it, I'm going to go to sleep, and have a good night.

Obviously, the lost friends issue is a major hurdle for STBX. I don't have any quick fix for that, just time I guess. However, it appears that she is still detoured from focusing on addressing the real problems in the MR, including her A.

Still a very long way to go...

Have a great weekend, friends!


Me:35 W:30
D:4 S:1
Bomb: 01/08/15, discovered EA & PA
In House Separation: 01/14/15
W moves out: 04/05/15
I tell OM's W about A: 04/15/15
W serves D papers: 06/19/15
Mediation: 09/16/15
D final: 12/01/15