Thread for Prowl #2

[Prowl]

If your W is saying that Satan's power (the temptation, that sense of feeling drawn against your better knowledge) is just too strong and therefore she is giving up the fight..........then it suggests that she knows it's a spiritual battle for her (at least, in part) and she is saying she doesn't want to choose God's way out b/c it's too hard. It is not too hard, but she has to be willing to let go. She is wanting to surrender to the temptation that is pulling her through the way of destruction. She doesn't see the destruction it causes, b/c Satan is a master deceiver of all things. She is addicted to the feelings that the flesh desires. That is what drives her right now. That is why it usually takes a long time of harsh reality before she begins to see through the rose colored glasses Satan put over her eyes.

I know it is so hard not to say anything about all of this, but the more you say about it, the worse she is going to react. I have seen wonder ministers preach to their own family, and they would rebell even more. It's something about hearing those truths from the person closest to the wayward, that just causes those walls to go higher. Yes, they get very angry b/c you speak about God.......and their heart is not in a holy condition when they are wayward. You are seeing the results of what happens when a Christian listens to the father of lies instead of the Father of Life.

Continue to pray for your WW, b/c that is your power source. He is a loving God, and loves her more than you do. Your faith is being tested, too. ((hugs))

Sorry for such a long and roundabout reply. One reason I don't get into more of this subject is b/c it's hard for me to find a stopping place. . I am very honored that you turned to me. I don't know that I gave a satisfactory answer, but I hope it helps in some way.

Thank you Sandi... I'm failing miserably at DB.. I was holding my own for a little over a week and then I found the pictures of her and her OM. I've fallen apart. I'm crying and begging and pleading again. I've been excused from work because I am such a mess. Everything is falling apart. I can't get my crap together...

She keeps telling me I need to get my crap together. That I am not giving her something that she would want to come back to. I talked to her for a minute while she was dropping S8 off with me. She got mad at me when I wanted to talk about R and I ended up walking away and started sobbing. She kept calling my name and telling me to come back but I just kept walking with my head down while the tears fell. I can't do this!!!

She called me about an hour later and said that she doesn't want to be mean to me. That we have kids together and we were great friends and she doesn't want it to be like this. She told me "We need to start out as friends again "Prowl".

She told me last night that our love was never really "On fire". She says she wants a "friendship on fire". Someone she is completely in love with. I'd have to agree with her. There were times we were "on fire" but not many... It makes me sad because I think she's found that with someone else now.. I feel like I failed as a husband. I've told her I know where I fell short and I want to create something new with her where we are a "friendship on fire". I am just afraid she's already found it...