Walk away wife and my journey

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Ok so it feels like I have just gone back to square one

I come home having been out for a drive I spoke to the Samaritans because I was feeling very low

I walk into the house and she asks what was the matter I say nothing and she say clearly there was something wrong we then have a full on chat AGAIN about me wanting one thing and she wanting something else

She tells me that she has firmly made her mind up and that she will not get back together with me ...she made her mind up and she is not going to change it she knows I want us to get back together but she made it totally clear that she sees herself as a single woman and does want to be responsible for another adult

We talk I cry sob break down and tell her it would be easier if I hated her as I could move on easier......she cries and says why would I say that ....I say I said it would be easier if I hated you ...meaning I could walk away easier.....I did not say I hate you

She cannot even see that her mindset is what is different now she could not see that 6 months ago her feelings were very different and in a further 6 months they may be different again .

So just how much dose this mean I have set my self back

Sorry for letting myself down and sorry for letting my helpers supporters down