everyone saying the A word is making me really upset. So i typed her name into google and went to her google plus page. she has a new profile photo, is as beautiful as ever, and, as before, i have no place in that life.
she said for a the year that she liked to have the personal space be different from the work space, and it tore me up for a long time but i eventually just stopped looking at it and got over it. i had no reason to doubt her.
i dont ever get to talk to her now. everything is via text, and is short. her parents, who i liked more than my own parents, are getting colder toward me.
i mentioned that i'd take the girls on friday night and then get them back to her saturday at eight. it's fair, but i figured she'd say something. all she said was "alright."
i just can't believe this is happening. how can this happen?
she wrote this on July 7, 2011: “Life is like this for me: I work, I am a mother and I am married to you. I took vows before God and I plan on honoring them and when I fail at doing so I make amends for these failures and ask forgiveness with an eye towards building an even stronger relationship. I am not perfect and I don't expect you to be, the only thing I hope for us is to approach one another with honesty, love, warmth and humor.”
how can this happen? how could i have been such an [censored], such an idiot to throw away the smartest, most beautiful woman in the world? She was the ideal partner, the most amazing wife, and I just trashed all of it by being angry and not working things through. Never meeting in the middle.
I can't take this. right now it's worse than it has been for weeks.
why even try? why even make an effort? it's the most horrid feeling to be left here and so wanting to just hold her hand.
how can i survive this?
M36,W34 T18 years M9 years D3,D6 W "doesn't want to be married anymore"6/14/15 ILYBNILWY6/2015 W moves to parents house 6/30/15 W removes wedding band 7/3/15 My ring back on 8/8/15 Served 8/11/2015.
