Z again, I disagree with this. I will not try to contact you."
I suppose I would disagree too, if looking at myself in the mirror every day was necessary. If this was not sent out of cruelty, he must've really made me into some kind of monster in his head.
Cold as f***.
You know, today I said a prayer that God would heal whatever was needed to be healed in him and me if it was possible to bring us together again. And that if not, he would give me peace to move on.
Peace, like revenge, seems to be served up cold.
I am never looking back. Whether he is inhuman, a systematic abuser, messed up, personality disordered, narc, irrational, immature, coming down with the mental illness his mother had, it does not matter. He wasn't a husband I thought I married. That person is dead to me. This person is not needed in my life.
I wish I had never given any heresay about his upset feelings a second thought.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
