My H has gone to his soon to be new hometown. He is scouting out apartments and applying for jobs. Rationally, he is doing the right thing for himself. Emotionally, for me it s**ks!!! I really don't know if our M can be repaired with us not being able to see each other at all. Going to MC will be out of the question then. Will he continue IC?? Probably not. He will be too busy working and getting his business established. Sometimes he is wish washy about actually leaving Sept. 1st. He says if he doesn't have a job he won't go. Yesterday we had a brief conversation on the telephone and I told him he should go. He has enough money saved to get a small apartment and he will get a job if he needs to. As my BFF always says: Necessity is the mother of invention! He doesn't have much work up here anymore and delaying his move will not be good for his business. I feel like I'm pushing him to go, which is so not what I want, but him staying here will just make things worse for him. Again, I do worry that the physical distance between us will cause our M to be done. Not so much for him, but for me. Out of sight, out of mind! I will live by myself again and do the things I need to do for myself. Almost like hitting rewind to before we met 5 years ago. Like as if we never even happened. That actually makes me sad. I really don't need him in my life, but I really wanted him there. Now it seems that he will start a new chapter in his life without me and once I sell this house so will I. We have no ties, no kids, no animals, no mutual friends. Really we have nothing in common.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
