HD I see a lot of positives in your life that you are writing about. To piggy back on Wonka's comment about it taking time; I have found that progress comes in chunks and does not flow smoothly. I found out that any big hurt or sting I felt about the R or towards the XW was soon worked through and I found myself even further down the road towards healing. I honestly believe it is a life long process, but with great pain can come great progress.

Keep it up HD; one day you will look back and find out that you haven't even thought about the whole situation for quite some time. Those baby steps can move worlds.

M:34 XW:34
Together: 10y
Living: 9y
Married: 7y
Son:6 Son:4
Separated: 12/28/13
Piecing: 5/2/14
Separated 2nd: 10/16/14
W filed, but pulled it: 11/5/14
papers served: 1/27/15
D final: 3/6/15