I sit here pondering what I could possibly say to you Matt.
From the bottom of my heart. I am so terribly sorry and I feel utter devastation for you. If I knew you in person, I'd offer whatever support I could. I hope that these words try to convey the feelings I have.
Support is here for you. Change your name if you have to so you can keep your private moments.
Reincarnate yourself and welcome back to DB day 1.