As nasty as he get he Always! Seems to apologize. I do to but he does mane an effort to do the. Or ignore the past argument and next conversation back like nothing happened.
"Well as always i have to apologize for every little thing! I'm SORRY!!!" He always says during or after an argument all he wants to do is get along! Really? I just want him to go away. It seems very important to get along and friendly on his terms. Basis silly shut your mouth talk about nothing and well be fine. Nothing includes everything from Kids to the weather.
I am actually glad he is finally spending more time with the GF. It's been almost 2 years and it's time she sees the real him. All I can say is there's no man that I would drive 3 hours for to visit for one night or even tonight and he's not home he's out with his kids or he's working. While she makes dinner and cookies. Maybe that's why we're divorced lol or trying to anyway :-) Since going on 2 years now I always wondered why the people here that had been here longer, would say after all this time they didn't want to be with him. All you can think about in the beginning is getting back to them. I have spent a lot of time thinking back about our marriage and how mean he was to me. And when I see him what tension there is and how I feel. I honestly am so at peace being alone. Don't get me wrong, I miss him and a lot of things that we used to do together but he was so mean and selfish. I woke up about 1 o'clock in the morning in a sheer panic that I've never felt before. It wasn't as scared feeling like my heart was racing it was almost like I was a trapped animal. I was terrified that he was gone. almost the feeling like when he first left. I couldn't catch my breath I felt like I needed to run, it was the strangest feeling I was terrified. & I kept telling myself he left long time ago what's wrong with you. I actually had to take a xanax because I was so freaked out. Never been like that before. I don't know if it's because I called the attorney or what? Anyway thanks all for the advice.
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
