Journaling. I just got home from work and I am having a hard time. I have another week to go til I can see my doctor and get my meds again.
I went into my bedroom and saw my ds sleeping and it breaks my heart that my h is missing out on so much of him.
Why did ow become so important to h that he walked out? Why doesn't he want me? Why does it feel like he will forget about us? Why does she get to make the rules regarding when and where he sees the children and I need to accept it? This one I don't and refuse to back down. Why is it all about her and him?
I know these can't be answered or fall under the who cares if he does category, so please don't yell at me.
I'm trying. I wish I could figure out how to completely let go and not feel like I have given up. With my anxiety high my ocd is in overdrive and so is my mind.
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014