A new thread - My W's OW, the Predator

[DifRent]

Haha Wonka... well, I didn't want to do anything in response to her temp checking without your expert advice.

This week has been good in a lot of ways - feeling the distance and the separation from my W is probably necessary. My friend is very dear to me, but I'm struggling with being here in the midst of her happy family. She has a sweet six year old daughter (who loves and misses my W) who sleeps with my friend while her husband (an incredibly good man) is away. It makes me long for the days my kids were young and sweet like that, my kids who moved out just a month ago and are happy to be on their own. I miss their presence in my home and their more constant presence in my life.

The job I have right now has me working with high school seniors and their parents. The parents and their weepy incredulity at how fast it all goes takes me back to a year ago at this time when my younger son was entering his senior year, and how relieved we all were that my W had just left her Afghanistan post, and I was getting ready to board a plane and meet her in Albania for a month where we were going to plan the next exciting phase of our lives back home together. It was an amazing and wonderful, happy, relieved time in my life.

This week, I can't help wishing I could just press rewind, take nothing for granted, and do just enough things differently when we returned home for us to be in a good place now, instead of this mess. I really miss having a family, and our family life. I feel very alone this week, even while being in the midst of my good friend and her family - maybe even moreso because I'm here. But I need to start adjusting to my new normal, no matter how much I would prefer not to.

Thanks, just wanted to get that out. I know I keep saying I'm going off the board, but I might be back.