It just is not the same - it will never be the same I have realized. I am not the same person and she is not the same person, yet we have these two little people who are depending upon us. We just can't communicate. It is broken and no matter how much we try, we just can't break down the wall. We used to be able to finish each others sentances, now we can't even talk. We are so out of sync that I could say Black and she would hear White and vice versa. She talks about things I have no idea what she means. She sent me an email earlier and at the end it said <EOM>, I asked what does that mean? She replied end of message. Who ends email messages like that? Did she join the navy suddenly?
You are right, I am still very upset by her behaviors and the OW and leaving me and killing our family. All of this is BEYOND MY CONTROL and I hate it and hate her for doing this.
Did you guys know she told me about the OW on my most special day - our anniverssary. Yeah, the most sacred day of my life and she picks that day to really stick it to me. She also knew that the following week I would be out of town all week on a business trip. She helped me pack and talked it up and how important it was to make this meeting, and what a good career move it was for me and us. It was a set up. She wanted me out of town to cary out her plan with the OW. All of it was timed for maximum damage to our marriage, family and to me personally. With me being 2,000 miles away, she knew there was nothing I could do about any of it.
BLECH - thanks for letting me vent. On to other news, I have a date tonight, a real date with someone who really likes me. Just to have the chance to go out with a friend and talk is helpful. I won't talk abut any of these issues.
