MC said H is in no position to do real work. I have to do all the work at this point. That is what I suspected. I didn't ask him about saying the EA was a test and not a real affair because H was there. The last few weeks I thought were a big improvement. H thinks they were a setback and he feels worse. This is so frustrating. His biggest problem with me now is that I show emotion. Yes, I am emotional. Working on it, I can tone it down and be less reactive. But I am never going to be non-emotional. But I will tone it down. I have been, I will do better.
I have never been so tempted to just quit as I am right now. But I won't because that would be an emotional reaction and not want I really want. I am so frustrated and hurt right now. H interprets EVERY single thing I do in the worst way possible. He is just clinging to his hurt so tightly and will not budge an inch. I need to work on validating too. Hard to do when H barely speaks a word.
