Uncertain and vexing times - must stay on DB point

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So, last week was crazy with work. That took most of my attention. Spent bits and pieces of time with W and kids when I could, but it was hard to be gone for so many hours. Grandparents took the kids for the weekend and ended up taking a weekend trip with W. It was really nice and we had a really good time. I realize this isn't necessarily the pull back strategy in it's fullest, but it felt like the right thing to do, and it was a joint choice, I wasn't pursuing as best I could.

We were together for the whole trip as it was just the two of us and we had a lot of fun together. It didn't feel forced and I made sure to give space, not be smothering, and just have a good time for myself. It felt successful. At the end of the trip W was talking very positively and seemed to be turning a corner. I'm still extremely cautious as I believe she is still Wayward. It's hard not to have expectations, but I'm doing what I can to work on detachment.

Came home after work yesterday and got the kids ready for a walk. Told W I was going to take them and she could work out or do whatever she wanted. As we were about to leave, she wanted to join, so she came and we each took a kid to focus on (they were on scooters and skateboards). The walk went well, and we each just focused on the kids. It was good.

I realize she can't miss me without space, but I do want to encourage good behavior and good times when we are together - we always have fun. I'm doing my best to keep PMA and not hover at home.

For GAL, I'm meeting a friend for drinks tomorrow. She knows who it is, so it's not a mysterious GAL, but it is something I'm looking forward to. She may go out with a friend on Thursday which will give me some alone time with the kids.

I know the rollercoaster isn't over and that makes me nervous. I'm continuing to try and detach and make sure I'm moving things forward regardless of what she's doing. This weekend felt like a battle one, but the war is far from over. Still a lot work to be done.