Zeus thanks again. I am on here constantly reading threads. I feel like life has become reading on here and looking at books articles. I am starting on the relationship rescue workbook by dr phil It is also about changing yourself. I am re reading DR. And as soon as I have the 31$ will buy co dependent no more. Hmmmm I will have to put some real thought into how someone mature would handle this situation. I do not think I have been very mature about it at all. How to cope? I have no idea I will have to think on that too. My only way of coping lately has been to get angry and yell not healthy and not helping more of the same behavior. I know a few things I could look at differently one being that I have bought a year of time so far and as long as there is changes and less fighting he would have no reason to make me leave. I need to take real advantage of the gift of time. I need to stop telling H i am going to change and use actions because he has stated many times he does not believe me anyways. I have a good few days/weeks and go back to where I was. I need to spend IC time to focus on co dependency and emotional independence detatchment. I have a lot of work to do but If I continue to backslide there will for sure be no way to save this. So I need to commit fully to this. I need to make changes slowly and journal journal journal. Zeus do you have any specific threads in mind that are similiar to my sitch? otherwise I will just keep going down the line!
