Life as a new LBS

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Thanks for replying Sandi. I am fully committed to this. I know based on my past posts that it is difficult to believe. The friendship card really did change the dynamics for me. I know that her head is nowhere near reconciliation and will not be for a long time if ever.

I have absolutely been operating on emotions. I thought about her constantly, obsessively watched her social media accounts. At a certain point, my mind would just snap and I just told myself, I have to contact her! I couldn't bare it any longer. I would look for any sign of hope. I interpreted the meetings as positive signs, a quick hug or kiss would envelop me. Turns out, they weren't. I would take two steps forward and go three back.

I have not had any contact with her since Friday evening. And I have no plans to contact her. What I was doing was not working! I have not seen her in almost 2 weeks. The only thing tying us together at this point is the dogs. I want to see my dog, but I don't want to risk the DB for it. I thought maybe I could ask her to drop him off while I am at work.