Zeus you are right! He is giving me time even when I probably do not deserve it! I am reacting! I NEED to change that! It is one thing we talked briefly about in Ic that I likely feel the need to fight and control because I have never had control of my life! My childhood was umm let's stick with horrible as that is appropriate! So I learned to fight to survive! I need to earn to let go now! Totally opposite of what I know! It's so crazy to me that I can detach from my immediate family but not from him or This family! It's very frustrating! Plus I am a redhead so stfu stop arguing play higher cards even though I am not getting them back! I knew this would not be easy but oh my! Ok I promise to keep working! Stfu would be a 180 for me! He always tells me I could argue with a brick wall! Detaching is so much harder living together and practically being together! Grrr im willing to try anything so here goes stfu and do nothing!
so stfu stop arguing play higher cards even though I am not getting them back! I knew this would not be easy but oh my! Ok I promise to keep working! Stfu would be a 180 for me! He always tells me I could argue with a brick wall! Detaching is so much harder living together and practically being together! Grrr im willing to try anything so here goes stfu and do nothing!