Really Random Ramblings

[tadpole1025]

Ginger, sorry, but I didn't see your post until today.

Toots, you said:

I don't think you answered my questions on possible IC and/or seeing a doctor about how you are feeling. Have you sought any emotional/medical support recently?

I've tried the counselor thing. A few times. Medical help? I saw a doctor when this all started. I was on ADs for a while, but took myself off of them. (My brother was on them when he killed himself.)

I did not make it to the pool last night after work.

So, today I made plans to go to a little bar and grill in town. When I arrived, I realized that it was in the same plaza as the place where I took my rats to get cremated. When I got there, I turned around and went home. About an hour later, I tried it again. My watch said 4:38 when I walked in. There was nobody but old guys in there talking about deer hunting. Five years ago, that wouldn't have mattered to me. So, because I didn't want to listen to a bunch of dudes talking about killing animals, I left after one drink. When I walked out, it was 5:04. Ug....26 minutes. Never did eat.

I've really got to get past this....

Tad