I thought everything was okay....(Part 6)

[MCS]

Wow, didn't realize it was that long. For me, nothing really that new to report. I'm feeling fine and have definitely found my groove. Thinking about the sitch makes me feel sad, but it's not consuming at all. More of that feeling you have when you hear a sad story, not like I've lived through it. I can tell my next step is to work on forgiveness, not for the pain she's inflicted on me; but more of destroying f our family. I look back and the struggles she was dealing with internally never manifested itself in front of me or the kids. So while I struggle to understand, the kids see what seemed to be a happy relationship crumble in front of them. I'm sure they will struggle with that for a long time. I guess I learned what marriage was seeing my parents go through struggles, arguments and compromise as well as all of the good things. Hopefully my kids will be able to learn that somehow.

As far as dating, it's going well. It seems very balanced as we both see that we have our own sitches to deal with, but are there to support each other. It's very much a take it slow type of thing as we both realize that the dating priority is lower down on the list with ourselves, kids, work and generally life all requiring a lot of our focus. In saying that, the time together is very nice and comfortable, friendly and relaxing.

With WW, I'm taking a new approach of just trying to interact (via email) as I would a babysitter. Sharing information about the kids, and their plans only. We haven't verbally spoke since the tax fiasco back in April on her own accord. I usually say I'm willing to discuss kids things in person at the end of of emails, but it's apparent she probably thinks this level of interaction is just fine. I don't know what is going on with OM, nor do I really care right now. I do know from the kids that WW takes the kids over to play with OM, his GF and their son. It infuriates me, but what can I do. It's sad to see her give everything up to be someone's second choice. I can't control that though, hopefully she figures out how to learn and thrive from the sitch.