If you are still looking for resources on fear, I am going to suggest that you do an internet search on the subject. I think you will find what you are looking.
BTW, you need to start a new thread. This one is going to lock very soon.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
