Heading toward affair- what to do?

[hopeOK]

His emails today have been strictly business... I feel like he is trying to refocus on keeping me at an arm's length. Yesterday before our talk, he seemed like he was trying to do nice things (probably out of his panic I was leaving) & now he feels ok enough to go back to what we had been doing before. I don't know... I am definitely trying to figure out where he is and I know I should not be focusing on that.

I did email him to say I planned to meet up with a friend after my counseling tonight, so maybe he is reacting to that.

Trying to refocus myself on not believing anything he says & waiting for the actions. I need to post my list of goal oriented actions I made up when I first read the book.

Also focusing on GAL, friendly neighbor, and detaching. Anything else I am missing? I continue to monitor any voice activity in the car... And I guess now I can monitor phone calls/texts but other than that, he could be doing a lot that I wouldn't catch.

When we get back from vacation I am thinking I will bring up my boundaries again in regards to me not willing to be in an open relationship & see where he stands on that. Good idea?

I guess I am just still reeling from this weekends conversation & needing to refocus. He has gotten back a bit of control & seems to feel better about where he stands where I feel like I have lost a bit of something....