'I really hope to get out - there's just no desire'

You are master of your own destiny Tad. Follow the hope and take some more baby steps. Build on the mini successes you already had. You say there is no desire, but if you hope to get out, that is desire isn't it?

So, let's hear your ideas for the NOTHING PLANNED days....and a commitment to do one thing - even if it is just a mini step - on each of those days.

I don't think you answered my questions on possible IC and/or seeing a doctor about how you are feeling. Have you sought any emotional/medical support recently? I just wonder whether it is worth delving a little further into this lack of desire/inertia to see what lies behind it, and have some support to overcome that.

I would maybe park the idea of getting more rats just now. I think they are just substituting things that you miss in your life. Maybe revisit the idea when you are more happy with the fullness of your life outside of work?

Take care xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus