I find myself missing WW. Quite a bit. The online dating scene is...just not really for me. Ive tried to put myself out there but 1. I don't know if I'm really ready for that... 2. Im not really getting anywhere with it.
Every girl just...doesnt appeal to me the way WW does...strange as that sounds. It's been about 10 days of NC...and I really want to reach out to her..to see how she's doing..to send her things about the dogs..but Ive held back..
I don't know why I love and care about her so much. I mean..shes living with another guy for [censored]'s sake!. But...I guess at the end of the day she's still my W. Idk...im not going to text her because i really don't know what to say. It doesnt help that its the weekend and things are quiet...very quiet, and everyone I know and hang out with is married so its just...different.
To make things worse? Im going to be at the base near WW (about 15min away) in about a month. I don't know if i should tell her ill be there? if we should meet up for dinner? That maybe we should talk and figure out if we should file?
She hasn't filed but then again, idk if she ever will..or if she's waiting to see where this thing goes with OM (probably accurate statement). Idk..weekends suck. Ironically being at work is better than sitting at home...or hanging out with married people. Why the [censored] should they get to be happy.
ME: 28 W: 24 M: 2.5yrs T: 5yrs BD: 22 SEP 14 W Leaves: 5 OCT 14
