Well Grad party went ok. OW best friend came and I just stayed upbeat and smilled the entire time. Some family we have not seen in a long time showed up and I was introduced as his partner actually felt kind of weird for the first time. I thought It would feel good and sweet but it was by his aunt and it actually made me want to say ex partner and I am not sure why! A few questions, (I am re-reading the book) so what do I do when he initiates ML, hugs, cuddles, or asks me to go to garage? Do I say no or do I go ahead some of the time? He did comment today that ML with OW was very inconvenient. Kind of made me smile on the inside. Hopefully he is getting sick of it. only thing is now that I have been on here I know I am not ready for him to come back and I know if he did we would end up in the same place. I need to become stronger first. I almost feel like im in the very start of detatchment. It is weird. He fell asleep in the living room last night I got up went out to see if he came home and left him out there I guess i did not really care if he came to bed. that is a 180 for me because i usually wake him up!
