Summer of Growth and Acceptance - Part 2

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Cleaning, cleaning, and more cleaning. Most of my GAL has been preparing for famy's visit/arrival next Thursday. Have been out and about running errands. Did go to a brew festival last night for a bit. It does help take mind on H.

H has been home every night since he got back on Thursday. Guessing OW is out of town or something?? Last night he did seem pretty blue, moping about and all. He was not as interactive, which is fine. He is still acknowledging my existence which is much better than before trip. Yesterday morning, he even mentioned that it looked like I lost quite a bit of weight. Closest thing to a compliment for a few months now. Relatively speaking, our interactions have all been positive since he has been back. I have purposefully decided to no bring up text about communication and just let it rest. I figure he will bring it up if he wants to chat. I did ask him to help me trim dogs toenails. It is much easier with two people and I am always afraid I will trim too much. He said he would, but then did not really seem overly keen and just sat out in the dark on the patio on his phone. So I finally went inside and started to do it myself. He then cam in and said I was stubborn, that he said he would help, and it was weird that I would ask and then do on own. I said I figured I had to learn to do on own, and yes, I am stubborn. I said if he wanted to help he was welcome to. He did.

I think it bothers him that I have taken over his prized flower garden and have even planted some flowers myself, put new mulch down, etc. I have given him a number of affirmations about what a good job he did with flowers and how much I enjoy them. I actually enjoy working in the yard and I think it is a good way to show that I am not going to sit back and wait around for him. He used to do most of the yard work. It is in reference to the yard and garden that he keeps refencing the future. We should do this, we should do that. Not really showing it with any actions. Also, he does keep trying to engage with the dog which really has been his dog. They had a super close bond, but the dog just does not seem interested and comes and hangs out with me. That is what happens when you ignore someone or something for months. My dog has mastered detachment quicker than me. Sigh....