Oh Z, don't beat yourself up for being human, we have all opened wounds on occasion.
I have done so on more than one occasion and condemned myself over and over. It does little more than perpetuate the abuse that the other person has put has through only this time we do it to ourselves.
This wound will close again, there will likely be a scar a small reminder for the future of period of pain, but also a reminder of your strength and ability to grow and overcome.
Bob makes a great suggestion of the healing force of laughter and company of good friends.
