Thanks for taking the time to post, Zues. And you're exactly right... I haven't "bottomed out" yet. I see this, I know this, I know I'm putting my attention and focus where it shouldn't be. The pit in my gut is still too large. I'm still in disbelief. It's still not been three months. I use this forum to brain dumb, journal, process... and hope that in time, more of the posts will be about my own progress, and not so much about what's going on with her.
In fact, the way she's begun to distance herself, there might not be much to post in that department for a while, anyway.
I think what I'm hoping is that this upcoming week away from the house, and with a self-imposed moratorium on talking about her, with anyone (and I probably will avoid this board for the next week to aid with my detachment), will help me shift my focus to the future, and what I need to do for myself.
Which is a hell of a lot.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
