It sounds as if you are doing a lot better at stabilizing and detaching. At this point in time, your main work is to continue cramming information that's available here on the board.
How is your self-esteem holding up? It really takes a beating in this type of crisis. Getting out and being around your guy friends and doing some fun actitivities will help some. Getting a life has powerful healing benefits.
If the depression doesn't let up, you may want to consider seeing your doctor. Many LBH'S need temporary meds to get through this period.
Just keep posting and reading. Weekends are a little slow on the board, so don't let it discourage you.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
