Tad, don't beat yourself up. You got out of the house and went to two things - that's progress. Yes, you didn't make it to a Meetup group yet - but all in good time okay?
For me - Meetups sound pretty daunting, and I have never been to one. I did sign up for one group, but it didn't go ahead. But that 'pure socialising' can be pretty daunting I think. And it may be something to work towards rather than going for gold right now.
IMHO, there are much more low key things out there that bring you into contact with others, but not in such a full on social way. I'm thinking of - being with others whilst doing something else. For me, I have got out and about volunteering in a charity bookstore, joining a Calligraphy group that does monthly workshops, joining a book group, yoga class, aerobics class etc. They are all things that are pretty low key and you get some incidental chat while doing something else.
What about coming up with a plan for a real low key 'get me out of the house' thing on days 6 & 7. Something you'll feel reasonably comfortable with and is achievable. Interesting that 'work Tad' is so confident and comfortable and 'home Tad' less so. Have you seen an IC at all? I did for a while and it was helpful. It may be something to think about - getting that support to build your home life into something you are truly happy with.
I think you've done well Tad.....now let's hear how you plan to build on this progress....x
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