Thanks Teach, I am cautious, mostly from reading all the stories on here. But, on the other hand, my situation was never quite as extreme as most of the others, so that is giving me hope. For example, H has never moved out. Although he travels a lot for work, so maybe that gave him the space he was seeking. And he has been attending MC with me since BD although I don't know if that is actually working or making things worse. I read the DR book and skimmed DB, going back and reading it more carefully. I am hopeful. And exhausted. H called me today and that was good- much better than no contact or a 3 word text. And I was friendly and ended the conversation first. Yesterday too.
I signed up for voice lessons- I can not sing at ALL and I always wished I could carry a tune just good enough to sing along to the radio and not scare the children. And I learned how to do "beach hair" and I've been rocking the beach hair style and getting lots of compliments on that. Enjoying the self improvement. I think I am going to start some weight lifting next- would love to have muscles. My next husband will be a lucky man. Hopefully he will be the same as my current husband, but that's not in my control.
