I am going to keep posting keep setting goals and keep reading your threads until I am through! I am choosing to work on me! Zeus is right is this how I want to live for 49 years? No way in he**! So I do feel my goals I just Set with your help focus more on me! I do want to keep looking for posiyives in me and him and seeing if I can change the dynamics of this and save this relationship and make it healthy! I am not sure how to become an A wife so hopefully Zeus will give me guidance on this! I am going to need a lot of support as I have never had a healthy relationship with anyone! Challenge accepted!