You sound like the work in progress that you want to be, and that's great.
Keep on keeping on, know that you will have some bad times and backslides, but you CAN manage this.
And just so I'm clear, you have spoken to a L? I hope so.
((( )))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016