In the couple of MC sessions H and I have been to he has said all the right things. How much he loves me, how he does not want a divorce and what an amazing bond we have. However, when trying to bring up things that caused or contributed to our BD he avoids and gets agitated. I will continue to GAL and get my house in order. I get discouraged spending time wih him, because he does not seem to want to work on himself as I am working on myself.
Basically, he wants me to fix the things that he had issues with (the kids, the animals, the house) and then move to be with him and everything will be hunky dory. That will not work! The underlying issues that he has will still be there. I will be in a much more vulnerable state having to leave my job, my family and pretty much everything behind. Unless I know that he is fully committed to working on our marriage and becoming a better "partner" how can I take that chance? I know that unless he works on himself I can't live with him. We will be getting right back on the Merry-Go-Round and in a years time we will be right back at this point again. Sometimes I just want to give up!
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
