So there is this jazz festival this weekend, and I love jazz and I want to go Saturday & Sunday.
I'm planning to invite my GF and to see if S15 wants to go with me. THEN I thought if H came home and said he was going to festival and did not ask me, I would put on my DB face, smile and tell him to have a great time, but inside I would be a lil hurt that he did not ask me.
BUT I know we are not in that place right now. But then I thought should I ask H, since I would want him to invite me?
Then, I got mad, about this whole situation, I mean I have a H on paper ONLY, I don't want no paper H. So then I was like I'm ready to end this whole mess, ready to tell H time is up, either work on this M or get ready to move out and get a D!!!!
I would love to be able to go to Jazz festival with H and s15, listen to music, and enjoy ourselves...
Oh I had sent him a text message the other day about a concert next Feb, ask if he wanted to go and there was NO response back on that topic. He has been working OT since we got back, but he found time to ask me to hang his shirts up and to ask me to see if there was a community yard sale this weekend....so since he did not reply to that invite at all. SO I already moved onto my GF to see if she wanted to go.
I guess I kinda know I should just plan this festival outings with my GF's and son, and leave it alone.
Back to the whole messed up situation, it's times like these when I want my H to enjoy things with me and I know I can not depend on that, cannot expect that from him.
It's times like these that I feel like I need to force the issue, cause I feel like my H could continue like we are for way longer then I want to/should/ or need to.
Maybe it's time for some R talk, H is all comfy with the way things are, no pressure, he has his wife and son and a nice home, a job good and that is what the world sees and he is happy putting on that show.
I feel like I'm the only one really "dealing" with the realness of this whole mess. I don't think H feels much of anything about this situation.
I'm tired of my H and this situation, and in typing out this post, I will not invite H to the jazz festival I will invite my friends and my son and keep moving forward.
I really only thought to invite H because he has limited working hours this weekend since he is in training and he will be around the house more then usual this weekend, and I thought back to a while ago when he mentioned/hinted about me not inviting him places...
Maybe he can be home for the community yard sale?
OK, I'm all over the place with this invite.
Heck, I'm all over the place about this whole entire marriage, but I'm know for sure 100% sure Im tired and I'm getting closer each day to wanting a decision, work on marriage or get a D.
Ok, need advice, need support? Please and Thanks
Me 43 ring off Oct 2014 (my ring back on Feb 2015) H 51 (ring off 7/2013) M 2007 T 1996 S 14 July 2013- H told me he was unhappy.....said he is staying for Son Feb 18 2014 Found out about OW
