[BrightFuture]

Job, you are so right… I didn’t even think about that at all. I guess this tells you how long I’ve been doing the “script” myself, ha. I’m so used to not rock the boat that this simple thought to ask H about how he is doing didn’t even cross my mind.

LiveNow, yes I see the difference now. Sometimes I think I need to start pushing H to do something, which would probably mean filing. I think actually I did it to some degree, even though indirectly, but through my mutual friends at the vacation home. In one of our conversations about that crazy woman (H’s so-called friend over there) I said that if I’m not able to come to the vacation home without any distractions from H’s friends and enjoy myself there, I will most likely take a step towards the D. Plus another thing I said was that I don’t want any other woman at the condo and if I find out about ow being at the condo, I will also file for D (pretty cruel on my part, I guess.) I said that in this case we will most likely lose the condo all together. Not sure if this will force H to make a decision, even if it will cost him the condo.

I thought that it was pretty stupid thing for me to say, but now I’m thinking that I was subconsciously trying to drive h to some kind of decision. I’m not sure if our conversation with mutual friends was communicated to H at all. I’m thinking that it was, because my male friends wanted to talk to h after that crazy woman approached me.

Anyway, I’m still processing all the recent posts to me. Like Job said, I need to take what applies to me and use what I can.

Sorry, I’m not able to post on other thread. The work is crazy right now, plus this other side project that I’ve doing takes the rest of my time these days. I also need to get ready for the vacation next week. I’m going to spend some time with my mutual friends while they and I visit some other friends (who we know from the vacation place) in another city. I’m going to spend a week with them.