Finding out who the OM is has been worse than I could have imagined. It use to be a faceless man now he ha a face and everytime I close my eyes I see the pictures of them together. My imagination sees them being intimate. He has some of the things I wanted and could never do because I was busy working two jobs to take care of my family. He had a college degree and he has a great paying job. She's going to divorce me, leaving me broke with paying child support for 5 children and they'll walk into the sunset, with a nice home and financial security. Something I worked so hard to provide for my family.
It's so easy now to see how she can say ILYBINILWY. She's getting those butterflies and endorphins from him now. Of coarse she doesn't feel any love for me. This is honestly the most painful experience of my life. I feel like my life was a complete waste.
BD Oct 2014 S Dec 2014 D filed Feb 20, 2015 D on hold as money ran out for attorneys and the marital home's future is up in the air
