May your fantasies come true

[Ggrass]

Yeah, it doesn't really apply to abuse.

You can protect your self tho it was interesting as it talks about people with compulsive behaivours need more connection to feel more connected.


How much of that feelling more connected comes from the outside?
How much should come from the inside?
How can one provided that without comporisming them self and leave your self open to abusers?

All intriguing thoughts to process, as it's why xh2 decided he loved his soul mate. That extordinary drug rush addiction of a new r. That big connection he felt, the one he felt we never had the one he stated he needed a above all else.

I'm doing well. Several close friends are pushing the marriage barrow towards bf. This I find a struggle it's far too soon to make such huge life changing decisions.

I'm still not sure what I want on that score, this might be better tho once settlement happens and it's being dragged out by xh2 and my L. They all move at a very slow pace.
I'm considering court as there are plenty of grey areas and h is disputing the length of time as he is stating the holidays he consistentantly went on were all times we were separated so perhaps a judge ruling is what's needed.

It's just shown how silly and trusting I was for so long and how taken in when it shows xh2 really had no intents of staying round. It shows how little store I put in his actions as the words muddied those waters so easily.

And really there are no answers, it's the same circle for the same ending which I really need to get off.