The past few days have just plain sucked emotionally. I suppose what is different now is that I'm keeping it all inside. PMA is nonexistent at this point, but I just close my door at work and spend time in my room at my parents.
No real contact with W right now other than mundane things by text...life related, not R related. I'm having a really tough time right now forum friends. I can't shake it no matter what I do.
I'm trying to be patient. The thought of the A is eating me up inside. It's the not knowing that is driving me nuts. I can't wait around forever until she decides to tell me about it, or let me know if she wants to work on us...
I was doing so well, and then I let myself fall for her again over the weekend. Now she's back in head. I can't get rid of this feeling. Hard to get through work and rehearsal everyday. I had IC today which usually helps, but it didn't do anything for me.
